I hate my mobile phone........

I have complete and utter contempt and disgust for my Nokia N97!

I should have known it was gonna be a problem from the first day I bought it when I couldn't find any music I had uploaded onto it. I had to reinstall the software to correct the problem.

Anyway 6 months later and its continual habit of freezing and needing rebooting had left me at the end of a very long tether.

Last straw came when:

1) Froze half way through a Mumford and Sons gig whilst taking pictures
2) The phone froze the night before I went to Paris and needed a hard reset.......... ......leaving me in Paris with no numbers and unable to contact anyone whilst there!
3) Continual freezing whenever I get an incoming call leading me to shout at the damn phone.......resulting in some very awkward conversations on the few times that it did suddenly and miraculously answer the call after initially freezing.

Try taking a 1st round telephone job interview after shouting down the line:....... you F@*£ing stupid sh!t contraption and still trying to convince the person on the end of the line that I would be a great asset to their company!

Proverb

"If heaven made him, earth can find some use for him!"

-Chinese Proverb-

I thought it was rather fitting to my situation.

A different pace!

Well I have started temping in random factory jobs! Totally slower pace from my previous jobs but that is exactly what I need for a little while and the good news is............no more panic attacks! Ended up back in my old job for now as a kind of stop gap whilst I collect my thoughts and decide on my next step into the big bad world!

Good thing about this job is:

A) I know the people

B) They know me

C) They know what to expect of me

D) I know what they expect of me

E) I can easily surpass these expectations

= F) No stress

Bad things:

A) Its a step backwards in terms of job roles and wages

B) If this is where I was most happiest in my job life why did I ever go to Uni and 'better myself'

C) I will get bored with it very soon and want out

D) Money is poor

So to get this right as far as I understand: If I want to be happy working in a job that has as little stress as possible, with little to no back stabbing or office politics then I will have to settle for low wages and boredom in an unchallenging, unchanging working environment!

Hmmmmm decisions, decisions, decisions!

I guess my search for the perfect job will go on then!

Renaming the Spider

I have been given orders to rename the spider that my girlfriend is scared of to Charlie the Spider as this is what she called it as a little growing sprout! Sad, I know but hey ho!

Lighter note!

On a lighter note my dog has learnt how to climb the fence into the neighbours garden and wait by his door for a treat until he comes out! Imagine being mugged in your own garden by the neighbours dog.....its his own fault for starting to give her treats in the first place!

Car crash of my life!

Well here goes! I have been lost for a long time and have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. So I recently changed jobs and took an £8000 basic pay cut to go and do another job. The boss at the new company had told me I should easily be earning the same as my previous role over the year if I included my bonuses. Now I couldn't have been thinking straight as there is no way anyone would make enough property sales in this economy to earn £8000 in bonuses. Lesson learnt - Do not believe everything you are told. Lets just say the boss talked a lot of shit and left me in a financial mire I could not see a way out of.

Panic attacks over money, 2 weeks off work and a course of Diazepam later and I went back to the same shit job. Well Monday came and after a week being back I had enough. I worked out basic wage, divided by the hours I was putting in over the year, discounting bonuses and I was earning less than minimum wage. What the fuck!!!!!!!!! I have no idea why I did not see this before!

Anyway long story short I handed in my notice there and then! So I now have a weeks garden leave and one hell of a job hunt on my hands.

I have not felt this good in a long time! I am not stressed, I feel no pressure and I am actually smiling and laughing.

I guess I will have to wait until Tuesday to see if I have a new job because if not then it'll all start again! Now I have never taken a risk this big in my life before and it has kind of made me feel more alive! I have a job interview tomorrow so I am hoping for some serious luck!

Sorry this couldn't be funny or entertaining but I guess I felt the need to write it down! I'll keep you posted!

Time

Time wasted doing nothing, is not time wasted at all!

Do not know if I heard this or wrote it but its true.